I feel a sense of calm that I hope I can hold on to. I realized today that I have been worrying needlessly (as worry always is), but God, it felt so good when I LET GO. I guess that's how I learn. I have to swim deep sometimes. I feel peace and joy now and I know what it is because I've been to the contrast. I've been crazy glued there and had to find some unknown strength in me to remove myself from it.
But I did. I was strong enough. I am strong enough. And I keep getting stronger, healthier, and braver. I know this is true. I refuse to accept any interfering thoughts that try to convince me otherwise. They don't deserve my attention anymore.
I am moving forward.